decided to move on

hi all,

well, i got a job, pass thru an interview n will be starting work in 1st nov.
well, i was kinda happy that i got it, so i wanted to contact joel to go mum mum. but. lols. he was busy. so i kena rejected. and in de end no mood to eat. cux i seriously fking miss him. i could not control my emotions i msged him. i shloud not have done that. wrong move seriously. WNRG MOVE.

after tt contacted feli, told her how i feel and she gave me some advice. seriously thank God for her. if not for her, i donno what joel is tinking and i might anyhow assume the worst. well.

contact one of my sp mate too. to ask her how long is her break up and stuff. well, i was suprised. her break up lasted 1 yr. but when they got back, she says everything feels like new and fresh. which was great. maybe i should not hang on in this sorrow anymre, i should just MOVE on without him. and for him to move on without me too. until the hurt is healed(which will be healed and which will take long for us too) once its healed, when the time is right, we will get back tgt again. i would like to believe in this. for the fact STILL he says got chance. so why shloud i worry?!!? yup

joel is a man of his word. yup, so i will definitely trust him^^ time to give him 100% trust from now on. now he needs time and i need to give him. and for myself too. need to tink thru alot.

yup, feeling a little better day by day. though my heart stil aches here n dere. hahas. i don mind waiting for someone even as long as a yr, or watever it takes. cux i wait for the best to come =). him to me is still the best. seriously. i'll wait, i'll guard my heart. this is a small prob. i can make it thru. yes i can =).. for the one i love.

thanks friends, your msges inspired me. i shall move on!
don bother him anymre rene! let him contact u tis tym rnd. whenever he is ready again =)