Meaningful Sabath day

Hi all, a few things wanna share w u guys(if you stil read my blog. lols)

1) Pst Kong's Preaching
today's msg is bout crisis part 2. well, we learnt about jacob in the bible about his chracter n stuff. learnt about what crissi is all about.
crisis basically is smth tt happen in order for you to chng. a deep chng. i felt thou today's sermon was talking about me(and of cux everyone else who goes thru crisis). my major crisis is a relationship(w joel). therefore this happe to make me chng. becux i was rushing things tt are suppose to be by nature, i rush it with my own strength. tts y im facing this now.
ALL GROWTH IS BY WAY OF CRISIS. Amen!
when you face a crisis, you shd have a commitment, which is to God. when we are weak, he is strong. and God is always mre interested in our chracter than our comfort. right now im facing challengings things like patience for my guy to come back. and trust me it's v torturing! but patience will train me to become stronger in my emotion. it will build up my chracter too.
after the commitment, it's confession. confessing the positive things. and i told myself, he will be back. i prayed for him too this few days, to bless his work and heal his heart n emotions. After praying, i always have this good feeling. that we are like meant for each other. becux our relationship was a prayed for. and i saw future with this guy. for each other's benefit, this break up have to happen. it was predicted too. but i cant accept it. now i understand everything. God make this happen for a reason. And i believe he want me n joel to be happy tgt. understand each other and stuff.
last is conversion, which i understand it to be a chnged person (this will take tym). i believe my actions/ my chnged chracter will moved his heart once again and give him hope for me n himself. n most ultimately, moved God's heart. i am realli willing to humble myself and admit all my mistakes to God, and chng for the better. i felt his realness and its time to end my games w God. i walk by faith now.

2)ivy's bday
hahas had fun during her bday. we ate the super hot buffalo wings! like crazy la. all of us heh heh chuan. ate some medium rare beef w thick butter mushroom sauce XD super nice! will bring joel there one day =) he will definitely luv it XD. took mani pictures n stuff. haha the most part tt is hard to forget, b4 we left the place, serene n gang bought her tequila shot with lvl 10 spicy sauce. OMG. she almost died drinking it. hahahas zomg.

3)about joel
yes its still super torturing waiting for him. but i noe i have to be patient! many times i just feel like gg over to his house n wait for him at one corner just to get a glimpse of him >.< i seriously luv him too much. not seeing him is like i donno. what i call an emotionall hell for me. thank God for FB. i noe his life what he is doing and stuff. kinda glad a little bit. but still. i cant contact him till 29 nov. haix. patience patience. rene can do it! XD grown to luv him mre n mre thru this break up. realise how precious he is to me. what a lucky guy. haha XD well, im lucky to have a man like him too =)

Cheers to the man i luv! (no mre baby, no mre papa, MAN ALREADY!) lols kk enuff of my craziness..

as usual, all the best for the both of us.