my dream

hi all,
had quite a wonderfull yet saddening dream today. dreamt alot about joel recently. for today, i rmb in my dream he was kinda celebrating his bday with alot alot of people in this rented chalet. he din realli talk to me n stuff. but just seeing him at one corner makes me smile. seeing him happy makes me happy too. but not being able to feel him. well, i gave him a card. and he thanked me for it. i cried. hahas. but he wasnt so into me anymre =(. he gave me this ignore knda face which hurts. *.-

rmb we were in a cab after drinking at a bar with his frens, he said he misses me. so i hug him n stuff. its just all feel so fking real. gave me this feeling like. wow finally we patch up. but i woke up coming to realise its all just a dream. well, my dreams are always so real. so hopefully this will come true soon^^. hahas.

well, i realli cant wait for him to get back to me once agn =p

here's rene stil patiently waiting for her true love =p
hope he noes that im waiting for him. =) i want to see him smile happily once agn infront of me.

i realli miss him =(

pls come back